Not much changed since the last post, school sucks, even more as before, I've been sick, tired and generally still depressed, maybe just not as much as before. Never mind.

But something strange happens lately. I have no idea if it is only temporary irony of fate or sth changed in myself, anyhow I feel much better and started noticing results of my trials of fixing mistakes of the past. They're still not very visible, but even small events give motivation to the further work.

That all began Friday 13th (awesome date, don't you think so?).

Day as day, two hard tests in a row, I didn't go on a first one and on the next lesson Chemistry teacher made another, unannounced. I completely blammed it, anyhow I don't care. Simply no wonder why she is known as 'Mrs Hitler'. Than Physicist went mad without any reason and yelled for the whole hour. I went from school furious.
Few minutes later I received a text message. My friend who I haven't talked with for nearly half a year wanted to meet. I couldn't believe. I finally felt a spark of contentment that day.

Also I have a freakin' luck. My other friend and me went to a RPG store, I needed to buy some stuff. I asked a seller about 10-sided-dices, but he told me they don't have such, so I asked about 20-sided one ('not Warhammer, so maybe Neuroshima', I thought), but the answer was the same. 'Heh, there's no free decks of Magic too?' I said beeing sure the reply. Of course, I was right.
In the shop was also a young guy who, I think, felt sorry about me (maybe I'm stupid thinking like this XD) and told the seller to look for dices carefully... And he found two 10-sides-dices and gave me them for free!! Both of them are strange, one is Japanese and the other one is from a Cthulhu edition. They're awesome!!

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And in the end I'll say that something really weird happened to me, because one day I came home with a bizarre feeling of power and... I came to my room and throw out all things from a half of a board with paper, magazines etc. (the second half was the next day). That was such a place where I put everything, especially when I had to hide something quickly. I knew I shoud have done that long time ago, but I didn't have time, strength and, probably the most, willingness to do that.

Stuff I found was a shock even for me, I knew what was near the door, but the deepest parts were like discovering a huge lost part of my own history. In the abyss of science artickles, comics and others I found hundreds of my drawings (really hundreds!) about which I completely had forgotten!!!

UPDATE!!!
I've just received a paintball stripe made from my project!!! I couldn't wait for it! Yay!!!