So I finally got out of the depression. I have just thought everything could be well, better time came...
My Grandpa died.
It happened so suddenly, so unexpectedly, so...
...
I feel crushed.
While writing this I still feel like it was a bad dream, I am still not full conscious of events of the last few days. ...I am afraid of the moment I will understand.
Me as me, I do not care about me, but I am really worrying about my Mom and cousin. They experience much more harder than me. I do not know how could I help them, but I know I must.
Hope some things will not be going worse.
I am very thankful for a some guy who this tragic day led me to a tramway station, hugged me and was trying to talk and cheer me up a bit. I do not remember much, I know that I barely could standing and that I was mumbling throught tears... But I do not forget this young man. I have no words to say my gratefullness for him...
Good to know that on this Earth are still some people who are able to offer disinterested help, who are not afraid to be someone's light.
Benjamin94
Good that you got out of one bad thing, but bad that you got in to another one...
I feel sorry for you... :( My Grandpa died almost 4 years ago... but I'm trying to not think about it so much...
Sometimes life is just so unfair...
Here in Hanko (witch is to me my favorite place to live...) aint everything good neither... the god damn snow is never melting!!! D:< And when it has melted, it's back again next morning! It's annoying... ):C
I hope that everything will be good after a while...
KuroiYasha
I also hope so, but things will not get better soon, this is too heavy experience, especially to my Mom. I know she will not put herself together for a long long time. I know I must help her as never before.
Not thinking about it is not a solution. All I can do now is praying and trying to reconile myself with the fate. I just cannot to forget the person I love, even if it hurt.
Death is a part of life as pain is a part of love.